My Prayer for "Sorrow!"

Dear Lord,

Father, please give me back Sorrow. For I love her so much, and my heart aches at the thought of seeing her beautiful face, and gorgeous dread locks. God, grant me my wish, and allow me to hold her in my arms, and embrace her strength. Give me the strength father, to not always be in a state of lust towards other women, or at Sorrow. But allow me to focus on you and trust you Lord. Because I know that you know what is best for me father, but without Sorrow, it's so hard to feel love.

Sure, I have love from my family and friends, but only she gives me the love that I need. Father, fulfill that love, for I know that even you can become a woman and embrace me with your own strength. Like Solomon said in Ecclesiastes, there is a time for everything. But God, please grant me this wish of mine! Let me hold onto Sorrow, let me touch her tattoos one last time, let me smell her hair, and kiss her tears with my lips.

Let me lie in her arms, and comfort me when I don't think think you're there for me. Father, I've felt death, and I think I have seen another world. I don't want to go there, and leave her behind. I need to protect Sorrow from her loneliness, and isolation. I know that only you can do that father, but grant me the ability to do it as well. Give me the patience to love her, and surrender to her, and bless our love for one another. Bless our relationship, and allow us to be married to one another.

God, there are times when I hate you, when I'm angry at you. I had so many plans for her, and for me. Now I don't even know what the future holds, I don't even know if we're compatible anymore. Who decides who's going be with somebody? It's not us, so it must be you. Am I compatible with Sorrow? Are we meant for one another? Could we be friends, and see each other as ones who tried, but failed, and enjoy seeing each others happiness with other people?

Father, what do you want for me? Isn't this the job of a Christian? Is it our job to suffer? Does that make you evil? Are you evil for wanting your followers to suffer, so that you can know who your true followers are? Is this all just a joke to you? Or do you truly love us so much, that you were willing to give us you're one and only son as a sacrifice for MY SINS!
Father, I can't stop sinning, I can't stop lusting, or hating certain people. But how do you love me so much? How do you do that? You're love for me is a mystery that I'll probably understand after death! If I die, will it all be for nothing?
Is there truly another world out there where everything is going be okay? I keep asking questions. You' never answer me with words, but maybe you will with nature. I think you do love me, because I see the changes in me every single day. I'm constantly killing my old self, and being reborn. I'm constantly trying to follow your word, and get closer to you father.
You're the one true God, who is all powerful, and all knowing. But I need Sorrow in my life, because she's all that I know. She's my wife, and I would love for her to be the mother of my children. But I'm also afraid of being a father, for I know that my own father hurt me as a child. I know that I'm capable of being a bad father, but maybe with your strength, I can become a great father, with better values. God, I want to stroke Sorrow's hair, kiss her cheek, and see her laugh. Please give me what I wish for, please grant me my wish. But it's your will father, not mine!

Allow my love for Sorrow, to look like hate compared to my love for you God, I love you for protecting me, and allowing me to speak to you God, and having a personal relationship with you.

God, I'll probably never understand the love and patience that you have for both me and humanity. But I'll try to grasp it, and just run with it.

God, I love you. And I praise you in your sons name, Jesus Christ, Amen!